tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4760515548310357683.post6519845574369734508..comments2010-07-27T08:35:31.209-07:00Comments on Learning to Breathe Happy...: Oh, Why,Oh Why,Did I watch that movie...Tina Wilsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10827517470821333517noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4760515548310357683.post-19649741955571727592010-07-27T08:35:31.209-07:002010-07-27T08:35:31.209-07:00OH Mam is right.........I still have not had the c...OH Mam is right.........I still have not had the courage to watch that movie :0/Samaniego be strong & courageoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01193766991696674557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4760515548310357683.post-12943379521557640612010-07-05T21:30:31.160-07:002010-07-05T21:30:31.160-07:00I remember doing the same thing when I lost my fir...I remember doing the same thing when I lost my first husband to cancer in 1984. My neighbor and I decided to go see that Movie with Shirley McClain about her daughter with children having cancer...obviously having just gone through pneumococcal septicemia, dic, arads, kidney failure, and ultimate death....I was shocked that my reaction was this is not real...and walked out of the theatre with dry eyes...I guess somehow I knew they had not experienced the ordeal, walked in my shoes, nor were they having to live a life raising a child without a father....I didn't realize until about 6 months later that I was so angry, that I forgot church and decided to do an ultimate clean out of his clothes, shoes, searching every pocket, every scrap piece of paper looking for anything he may have left behind....all the while throwing clothes out the second story of our home. I wouldn't wish this disease or demon as I call it on anyone I know. It shows no discrimination, it doesn't care...it robs you, and in the face of it you stand strong, and then the curtain can come tumbling down at the most inappropriate times. I didn't care...I wanted answers...he was gone home, and I was Left Behind. I didn't like it one bit. Did not accept it with a calm...It was Real, we had all lived it and it was HORRIBLE...<br />I understand seemed like just something for people to say...they didn't understand, they had not been to hell and back...You go girl...vent all you want...Those of us who really care, empathize and sympathize will be here....Others may fall by the wayside....it's too hard for them to dig inside their souls and say hey...that could be me.. Only by the Grace of God do they walk without disease, plaques and the Hell of Cancer. Take deep breathes and scream again..It is ok...It is well ...Standing in the Gap.<br />Sam MosleySAMhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09118397931390979956noreply@blogger.com